Jamais Vu or Déjà Vu?

Jamais Vu or Déjà Vu?

Jamais Vu: the intense feeling that the current circumstances are novel and strange, while objectively realizing that they have, indeed, been previously experienced.

Déjà Vu: The eerie feeling that you've been here and done this before.

The present moment feels like both: like we’ve been here before but don’t really remember it AND we haven’t been here before, but it sure feels like it!

Here we are ready to celebrate Hot Vax Summer Part Deux. Like last year’s version, the threat of rising case numbers lurks on the horizon. Mask requirements are gone. We’re OVER it – but is it over? Have we really been here before? Do our brains adapt to protect us when uncertainty becomes unbearable? At what point do our brains start to play tricks on us?

Well, here we are: About to ring in another year and still navigating the pandemic

Well, here we are: About to ring in another year and still navigating the pandemic

I started writing this blog in April 2020 as a way to chronicle life during this special period. For a while my posts were more frequent; over time they have slowed. Maybe that’s because I’ve become less certain what to write; things change so quickly. It’s impossible to know if conditions are returning to normal, if they’re getting farther from normal, or what normal even means anymore.

My head spins; yours probably does too. We have been through nearly two years of a pandemic and all the accompanying stress. There was the final year of Trump, January 6th, police shootings and a vibrant Black Lives Matter movement and subsequent backlash. Climate change is proceeding at an alarming rate, evidenced by a spate of extreme weather events (when did the term “atmospheric river” enter our lexicon anyways?). A woman’s right to choose is in serious jeopardy. Pro-vaxxers and anti-vaxxers dig in and square off in increasingly hostile confrontations. Half of our country has outlawed pandemic-related mandates. Health care workers are crying for help and teachers are burning out from the stress of the youth mental health crisis and fears of COVID and school shootings.

And yet in some ways “normal” life proceeds. People get married, have babies, change jobs, and pursue their educational goals. We continue on with our daily routines – some altered more than others – and determine our level of risk comfortability associated with various activities. News photos of packed bars appear on the same sites as photos of overflowing emergency rooms. The contrast in realities is hard to reconcile.

A close friend recently told me that the key to a good yearly family newsletter is to talk about not just events, but feelings. I’m not sure if he would say the same about a blog post, but here goes. My feelings have been and continue to be a rollercoaster. I’m an activist, a news junkie, a mom, a business owner, and a participant. I care about people I know and people I don’t know. I take seriously my role in our democracy and probably have an over-inflated sense of my own power to effect change. I also believe in civility and listening to all viewpoints, and am deeply saddened about how polarized we have become and how viciously we attack those with whom we disagree. It bothers me that people will flirt with COVID and take unnecessary risks, expecting that our health care workers will fix us if we fall ill. My level of frustration with our current reality varies by the day.

There are things I can fix more easily than others. As much as I’d like to steer society in a different direction, my main sphere of influence is my business. I take seriously my job of safeguarding the special bubble in which 50 of us (between Detroit Street Filling Station and The Lunch Room Bakery & Cafe) spend our work lives. I do my best to keep everyone safe and healthy and employed, and to provide a safe experience for our customers. My goal is to not add even a single case to our overburdened health care system. I also want to note that our sphere of influence informally includes our neighbors, the staff Community High. We keep in touch and cheer them up from time to time. Give a big thanks to the healthcare workers and teachers in your life!

Late Summer Updates: Internships & More

Late Summer Updates: Internships & More

I hope you have been enjoying summer as much as we have. Since re-opening our outdoor seating in mid-May, it’s been feeling like a party around here. The energy of a packed outdoor dining area is a welcome change from the isolation of our winter carry-out and delivery-only operation. The flowers have grown in the planters; birds, bees, and butterflies visit; you can relax and enjoy a meal; and our staff gets energized by their interactions with you. Although I and our employees remain masked, you can probably see our smiles through them.

Even as we have been enjoying our respite from COVID, we have been under no illusions that the pandemic is over. Personally, I have looked at this summer as the eye of the storm. I tried not to say that too much -- no one likes a party pooper, but with surges happening in other parts of the world, it has seemed like just a matter of time before the virus would return to us.

February Dispatch: Enough Already!

February Dispatch: Enough Already!

If this pandemic were a Greek goddess I’d call it “Nemesis.” If this pandemic were a hurricane I’d say that we’re in the eye. If this pandemic were an insect, I’d urge it to get on with metamorphosis. If this pandemic were a song I’d call it “What’s Going On?” If this pandemic were a movie, it would star Bela Lugosi. If this pandemic were a business, I’d give it a 1* Yelp review. If I were to sum up my feelings about this pandemic I’d say “Enough already!”

New Year's Dispatch: Looking out and looking in

New Year's Dispatch: Looking out and looking in

Happy New Year everyone. 2020 is over, which is reason for hope. (goodbye wretched year!) Yet there is still great uncertainty. Even as we look forward to spring, we first have to survive the winter. Survival, on a community level, means coming together and helping the most vulnerable among us.

Many of us are now receiving stimulus checks. For some, the checks will arrive just in the nick of time. For others, the check will sit in our bank account. If you are in the latter category, CONSIDER DONATING YOUR STIMULUS CHECK. Make a gift to an organization that helps those who are homeless, hungry, or sick. That is my plan personally.

Here is my suggested list of recipient organizations in Ann Arbor and Ypsilanti:

- Shelter Association of Washtenaw County

- Avalon Housing

- Food Gatherers

- Peace Neighborhood Center

- Ozone House

- Corner Health Center

- SOS Community Services

You may have a different favorite organization -- please, just give to it.

Now for an update on the restaurant:

Six Feet of Separation

Six Feet of Separation

There is a daily log in the restaurant that staff read upon arrival. It outlines the day’s schedule, describes any specials on the menu, and contains notes about random tasks and projects. Lately at the top of the page it simply states “SIX FEET.” Since re-opening eleven days ago, “six feet” has become our mantra. Other terms in our current restaurant lexicon include: pods, teams, line buddies, socially distant work stations and KN95 masks. Such is restaurant life in the tenth month of coronavirus.

By most measures, we have made a successful comeback from our staff COVID cases and brief closure. Sales are brisk, thanks to all of you. Our team is leaner, more efficient and more focused. We have not yet had another COVID case – knock on wood. And if we do get another positive case, possible exposure to other staff members will be greatly limited.

Is there always a next move??

Sarah Vaughn’s vocals drift through the speakers, the snow falls gently outside and I am comfortably lodged in the couch cushions in the living room of the house where I have lived since 1994. Those things feel normal and right. But if I look harder, very little feels right. It’s life in the time of COVID.

I am a strategist and a thinker and an organizer who loves a good challenge. I have stamina and energy and smarts. But COVID lately has me outflanked. Next moves are coming to me more slowly and with less confidence.

There's always a next move

There's always a next move

So, friends, I have news to share. Yes, I’ve been holding out on you. WE ARE EXPANDING! Crazy, right? I know. But when the going gets tough, well, the tough figure out their next move. And here is ours…

Tomorrow we are moving into the building next door, the place you may know as Jessica’s Apothecary. It is literally 19 feet from our back door. The 2-story building, built in 1900, is small and adorable, both inside and out.